Pants

It's been 7 months since I had my baby. That's a long time. Especially when I consider the fact that those jeans that I got into three months post partum are still the only pair of pre-pregnancy jeans that I can get on. I never wash them. Unless I spill something on them. They shrink when I wash them and then I have to stretch them out again until they are finally comfortable. This isn't as gross as it sounds because I only wear them when I leave the house which is usually only for 1-2 hours at a time, to grocery shop or for the occasional outing. As soon as I get back home, it's back into my yoga pants. 

These jeans don't even fit that well, which is probably obvious considering I try not to wash them, if I sit down I better be wearing a long shirt or else my post baby butt will be coming out the top. A few months ago, I was really excited that it wouldn't be too long before more jeans and my old pencil skirts fit again. I have 3 or 4 skirts that still don't fit so I usually wear stretchy clothes to church. That was a few months ago and my pants still don't fit. So now I'm thinking, should I just go buy new pants? If it's going to take this long, every time I have a baby, to get into my old jeans then I should probably just get some bigger pants, and skirts, right? Especially when I look at those jeans that fit and notice that they are wearing really thin in some places and are about to rip.

 Ugh. I mean, what are people even wearing these days? Last year, I was in college and I felt like I knew what was going on in the world. Now, my days consist of outings to the gym, walmart, winco, and Costco. One of my fears is that I'll be like one of those people who never moves on from the styles they wore in high school and college. I'm 23 but I feel so old. Right now, my wardrobe consists of v-necks from target and those one pair of jeans. Is that embarrassing? When I get dressed to leave the house I catch myself thinking things like, maybe I can find a shirt that I could just wear a sports bra with... Or, if I find a long t-shirt then I can wear leggings as pants. And then I realize that no, you need to wear a real bra with a real shirt and real pants. Have I let myself go?!  I still wear make up when I leave my house, so that's a good sign. There are days when I leave with my hair wet though, which I never used to do.

Anyways, I've gotten down to about 8-10 pounds above my pre-pregnancy weight. It doesn't seem like that much weight but it does at the same time. I'm sure that by the time I get it off it'll be time for my next baby though. So I really should just buy some bigger jeans. 

Also, I know I wrote about some trivial things like clothes and make up in this post and they really aren't that important in the grand scheme of things. I still want to look nice though.