I didn't realize that I had recurring toilet dreams until I was watching the Gilmore Girls Revival and we find out that Lorelai has a recurring nightmare about toilets. My toilet dreams are totally different than hers. By the way, that revival totally sucked!
My toilet dreams are not always the same. There's one that I seem to have more often than the others where I am in a room full of bathroom stalls and I need to use the bathroom but every toilet is overflowing. Or, I find one that's not and I go to use it and then it starts overflowing. There's water everywhere and it's gross. Or, some of the toilets are really dirty and I can't use them. Sometimes, there are no stalls, just a room full of toilets and I want to find one with a stall, but I can't, so I go to use a toilet out in the open and then it's overflowing. I've also dreamed that I've been going to the bathroom and then suddenly the toilet I'm sitting on is in the middle of my friend's kitchen, and all of my friends are around me and I am just hoping they don't notice that I'm sitting on a toilet with my pants down. My most recent toilet dream had Quinn in it. I was taking her to the bathroom somewhere, and there were four toilets in the room. They all kept overflowing. One would stop, and I would put her on it and try to get her to go but suddenly there was water everywhere.
These dreams are stressful!!! They probably sound dumb or maybe funny, but my dreams are very vivid and when you're in a room full of overflowing toilets it's not a good time. I finally googled "toilet dream" and I found this on www.dreamscloud.com
- "If you can't find a bathroom, it may indicate your inability to release and express your thoughts or emotions to others, or you may be afraid to reveal your true feelings. Alternately, it may be that you need to wake up and physically use the bathroom.
- If you find the restroom, you may discover there are others waiting and there no doors on the stalls or no stalls at all. Having no privacy, you are forced to do your business in font of others. In this case you may be feeling you don't have enough time to yourself or you have no personal space in waking life. If you are reluctant to take care of business in front of others you may be afraid to tell others how you really feel or to let others see you as you really are. If you can relieve yourself in front of others, you are unconcerned about what others may think of you.
- A dirty bathroom may be sign you are repressing a lot of negative emotions or you may be dealing with a lot of negative energy or negative, toxic people in waking life.
The Toilet
The toilet itself may be dealing with your ability or inability to eliminate problems, relationships, emotions, etc. If the toilet won't flush or is clogged, you may be unwilling or unable to release your emotions or express yourself. An overflowing toilet may represent an emotional outburst or you may be feeling overwhelmed by your emotions and the stresses in life.- The phrases, “dealing with a ‘crappy’” situation or “dealing with someone else’s ‘shit’” comes to mind."
This makes sense to me! I am a mom and I deal with other people's problems all day and all night. Toilet dream mystery is solved.
Sometimes, I look back on myself the way that I was four years ago and I feel a little bit sad. My skin was smoother and brighter, I didn't have weird spiky hairs sticking up all over my head. I wasn't so squishy. I think about how much fun I could be having if I didn't have kids or a husband or anyone to answer to. But, I also wasn't as confident in myself or as nice of a person. (I'm still not that nice, maybe I need to have more kids). I have more sympathy than I used to, something about having kids makes you see people a little differently. I'm not as selfish as I used to be or else I probably wouldn't be having toilet dreams. Having a family is making me a better person.
Jameson loves me. He gets so excited to see me and I love that. He's so chubby and happy and cute and I want to squish his thighs and kiss his cheeks. But then I get sad when I think about him growing up and maybe hating me. Or maybe I won't like him anymore. And then I'm like, what's the point? He's not going to remember anything about being a baby. I mean, I was a baby and I remember nothing. This probably makes no sense. Obviously, it's important to love a baby and meet the baby's needs, and I do. I love the crap out of him and Quinn. I know that I am helping to shape their lives and that my job is super important. I think what I am getting at is the huge amount of stress and work that goes into caring for a baby is doing just as much to shape me, to help me grow, as it is for him.
Most of the times it's obvious to me that I have the good life. It's just very once in awhile I fantasize about being away from it. I was watching the movie "Date Night" and there's a scene where Tina Fey's character is telling her husband "I just want one day that doesn't depend on how everyone else's day goes." Amen, Tina. And also the part where she says something about how she fantasizes about going to a hotel and eating a meal with nobody touching her. Yes. Now, when I eat, I think about which kid I want to hide from more. Quinn will get really close to me and ask me to share, but Jameson will stare at me and grunt really loud and start to cry if I don't share with him. If I am close enough to him, he will grab the hand holding food with both of his hands and pull it to his mouth. He's really strong for a baby. When the kids go to sleep, my first instinct is always to eat so they can't ask me for any of my food. I think I have a problem. Kelly is way nicer when it comes to sharing food than I am. I also fantasize about going to a hotel room and taking sleeping pills and sleeping uninterrupted for a very long time. But even though I dream about getting away from my life for a little bit, I still choose this life, every time. No way would I ever give this up. Give me toilet dreams for the next twenty years, I can handle it.
